Now Your mercy has saved my soul
Now Your freedom is all I know
The old made new
Jesus, when I met You
You called my name
And I ran out of that grave
Out of the darkness
Into Your glorious day!
Last night, I was watching another lit preaching by Jentezen Franklin and they sang this song at the end of his preaching that spoke so powerfully to me. So powerful, it got me shouting, dancing and praising the Lord at 4 am (sorry neighbors, LOL). But how can I keep calm whenever I remember how the Lord called me out of the grave I was in. How can one just chill when once you were in shackles of sin but now you’ve been set free. How can you not praise God when once you were dead but now alive. I don’t know if you know the feeling of trying so hard, with all your might, all your strength and power to be “good,” but it just seems so hard and impossible. In Tagalog, yung gusto mong bumait pero ang hirap. So you just give up and accept your fate as this hopeless wreck, that it’s easier being a ‘pasaway’. But oh when there’s just too much of blood shed for you that it washes away every mistake, sin, affliction you’ve ever had, how can you just let those things define who you are.
I’m not a hypocritical Christian or some self proclaimed righteous one. I used to be ashamed of certain things that I did in the past but when you get saved from them, why hide the things you were freed from. They serve as my testimonies of His goodness, faithfulness, love and mercy. That there’s absolutely nothing you could ever do to make Him change His mind about you.
So what are the things I got freed from? Smoking, drinking, tattoos, depression, anxiety, self mutilation and I could go on and on but y’all be giving me judgments and condemnation left and right. LOL. But this is not about the multitude of my sins but about one Salvation. It’s the power in the Name and the Word that saved me from the grave and set me free from the chains of bondage. Just like how He called Lazarus out of the tomb in a loud voice, I heard the Lord clearly call out my name when I surrendered to Him, “Marvi, my child, come out of that grave” and I didn’t just come running out, I came out busting some dance moves, and the best part is He embraced me just as I am in His loving arms. Despite all that I’ve done for Him to despise me, He loved me all the more. Who am I and what did I do to deserve this? But it’s not about who I am or what I’ve done, but of who He is and what He can do. And so now I say, oh grave, where is your sting, where is your victory?
Salvation will never be a “common” thing. I will forever be amazed at this blessing from my uncommonly great and extraordinary God. I will forever declare of His goodness and give Him praise after praise after praise till my last breath.
I do not know what struggle you are going through, but I do know the key to freedom, victory and salvation for every sin, struggle and tribulation in your life. And Jesus holds that key. He is waiting for you. He has always been. Surrender your life to Christ and experience the wonder of running out of the grave into His glorious days! Then you might just understand the gravity of this post.
Testimony by Marvi Ferreras